Schedule smedule

So my long break from having  no life and hobby time is coming/came to an end.  Problem is, I can't get back to doing what I was doing before.

I've spent so many months now sacrificing all my time to be a care giver that I can't seem to get into the swing of things, get a schedule down to where I can get my work and my play done.  When did me time become so hard?!

It'd probably help if the person I was taking care of didn't still need some mild assistance, (She's fine btw guys, she was just incapacitated for a few months) and so I still as a loving family member don't want to really get deep into something IN CASE SHE NEEDS ME!!!

I need to take my life back, just I need to want it more I guess... or need to feel selfish.  It's hard.  I was always taught to put everyone else first, because that's the nice thing to do.  It's time to take back!!!!  I am all about me from this moment forth! 

My youtube channel is floating along.  I want to work on it, but I can only record at night, as the HOT Ga days are much too hot for turning off the AC, not to mention there's always neighborhood noise to muck up the recording, and by the time night rolls around I'm pooped because I woke up early in the day.  I need something to flip my days around again.  Maybe a a movie marathon through the night, and make sure I sleep these hot summer days away.  Only problem is, summer is the time of weddings... and weddings are in the day.  (Part time photographer, it's a blast btw!)

Other then that my friends are all like "where are you we miss you!"  Guys, (and gals) I miss you too!!!  I just idk I'm having a hard time being available when you are.  <3 This will be the last day of lame "omg self sacrifice!" (good deeds do feel way too good), Jemi's going to be selfish, she needs her me time.